eloquence.

Allow me to explain, allow yourself to listen.

Dec 11, 2009 1:43am

Tonight was one of those nights that doesn't quite feel real,

like the reality of it will not set in until tomorrow morning.

Dec 10, 2009 5:20pm

I'm freezing.

I don’t want to go to Megan’s chorus concert tonight.

I just want to stay home,

and have a fire,

and drink coffee,

and smoke,

and call Kayleigh,

and talk to my dad,

who coincidentally just got home from work.

Dec 10, 2009 4:44pm

I feel sick,

And I will continue to feel this way until Max gets off work and I figure out what the hell is going on.

I want to sleep but I can’t because I’m nervous and scared and AHHHHHHHHH.

You know the feeling when it feels like your life might almost fall apart, but it hasn’t quite yet, but you can almost see it happening in the near future, and there’s not a thing you can do? And you can see yourself feeling empty and not getting out of bed for days because something that bad may happen?

It’s like that.

Dec 10, 2009 4:41pm

Lindsey

kayleighhasthoughts:

I miss when you didn’t have a boyfriend and neither of us had other friends.

I miss when you went to school and would call and wake me up at 7 am so you could talk to me before class started because you had no one to stand with.

I miss spending every weekend together.

I miss you calling me at midnight to tell me about things that I couldn’t care less about.

I miss watching TV over the phone with you.

I miss movie marathons with our sleepover food.

I miss you.

I miss you too babyboo! At least you get along with Rob haha.

I can’t watch TV on the phone anymore.

Also,

stop being sick and you can see me, bitch.

Dec 10, 2009 4:29pm